(And Why You’re Forgetting Everything)

Running Out of Time

Do you ever feel like you’re running out of time? Panic sets in, haste takes over, your heartbeat accelerates, palms sweat. Then you realize there’s nowhere you’re actually late for. You just always feel that way.

If you’ve been wondering why time feels strange lately, why days blur or hours stretch endlessly, there’s a deeper reason: the time matrix is melting.

Yes, you are running out of time, but not in the way you think. You are running out of the time matrix. You’re not late for anything. You’re exactly where you’re meant to be. But leaving the taskmaster of time behind is a strange and sometimes hilarious experience , and I had just one of those moments recently. If you can relate to what I’m about to share, please feel free to use the comments section below.

We have been trained our whole lives to serve the clock. From the school bell to the meeting schedule, from birthdays marked in red to the countdowns on our phones, time has been our master. But as the grip of linear time loosens, we are beginning to notice just how artificial that structure always was. When you can’t keep track of time and begin to feel unmoored from the hours and the days, take that as the sign that you are unplugging from an old control system.

The Time Matrix is Melting

Have you noticed how weird time has become? Ten minutes can feel like an hour, or it can vanish in a second. Something that happened yesterday can feel like it belongs to another lifetime. Time no longer obeys the old rules. It is less solid, less predictable, more malleable.

That’s because we are leaving the density of 3D where time was a rigid structure and entering the 4D and 5D thresholds where it begins to bend and flow. In 3D, time was a brick wall: solid, immovable, heavy. In 4D, it becomes a door that opens and closes, sometimes showing you glimpses of what is behind the wall. In 5D, time behaves more like a stream: moving, shimmering, carrying you forward yet never in a straight line.

And if you’ve ever felt dizzy, confused, or a little disoriented, that’s not just you “losing track of time” or maybe even “losing it.” It is what happens when the body is learning to operate beyond the false matrix of hours and dates. The nervous system panics because it can no longer measure its safety by the ticking of a clock. This is why some of us wake in the night, certain that it’s morning, or feel like weeks have passed since something that happened yesterday. It is not decline. It is initiation. And time itself acts differently, what was once a predictably straight line, metered and measured, now becomes a hoola hoop or circling energy without a dedicated start and end point. It’s everywhere all at once.

Welcome to the feeling of still living in a 3D construct but being able to access 4D and 5D consciousness, which is less linear and more “now”. There is a warping of our sense of time because we are trying to make time behave in the way we are used to, but it can’t. We’re beyond that now and time will continue to warp, blend, stop and then speed up again, all in an unpredictable array of experience that we call time and space.

When Time Glitches Become Comedy

Recently I accidentally sent my membership a reminder email for the end of September … in August. Not just a slip of the day, but an entire month. We nearly time travelled together … but not quite.

And it made me laugh because this isn’t new. If you’re a member of the Plasma Light Tribe, you know I often share my behind-the-scenes mishaps, the ones that prove just what a ditz I can be. Like the time I was desperately searching for my cellphone while talking to someone on the very phone I was looking for. Or the time I found my credit card in the fridge. Or, my personal favourite, when I was happily telling people that I was 48, with the comfort of knowing I still had two whole years until the big 5-0, only to discover that I was already 49. Which means that 50 is coming a lot sooner than expected.

It wasn’t a shock because I dread being older. It was a shock because I truly believed I was 48 this year and 47 last year. I had to catch up to myself in time.

This is what it looks like when the time matrix melts. The little slips, the comedy of errors, the fridge holding things that don’t belong, the birthdays that sneak up before you’re ready. These are not failures. They are proof that the linear scaffolding is dissolving. They are moments where your soul is living in a different rhythm, one that is not bound by calendars or clocks.

And here’s the gift: humour softens the panic. Laughter is a frequency shift. When you can laugh at yourself searching for your phone while holding it, you stop shaming yourself for “losing it” and start recognising you’re gaining something more important; fluidity, looseness, the ability to stretch beyond the clock and a long awaited immersion into the now.

Living Beyond Linear Time

While this might feel like forgetfulness, or even a little madness, I see it differently. The time matrix is melting. The rigid, linear way we used to measure our lives is dissolving, and we’re slipping into something wider. Call it whacky. Call it disorienting. When in fact, it is preparation.

Preparation for something bigger. Preparation for remembering that time was always more fluid than we were taught. Preparation for stepping out of the false matrix where time was used as a whip, into a realm where time becomes a canvas.

Think about how much of your stress has come from the tyranny of the clock. Deadlines. Expiry dates. The looming pressure of “not enough time.” The false matrix made time into a weapon. But when time melts, the weapon dissolves. You discover that the now is spacious enough to hold you, and when you enter into that space, you reconnect with your divinely infinite nature. Aaah yes … there it is, the satisfied stretching into the realization that you cannot be late to your own life.

Your Future Self and Quantum Time

Which makes me think. If life is nudging us out of linearity and into the quantum, maybe it’s the perfect moment to meet the one who already knows how to walk those timelines. Maybe it’s time to meet your future self.

Your future self is not a fantasy. It is a frequency that already exists. When you feel déjà vu, sudden knowing, or flashes of a different life, that is your future-self tugging on your sleeve. Sometimes the disorientation we feel around time is simply our future-self calling us forward, showing us the tracks they already laid down.

This is why I created the Meet Your Future Self meditations. They are not about pretending. They are about tuning into the part of you that has already walked where you are going, the one who remembers that time is not a straight line, it’s a circle… more accurately, a spiral.

👉 Both Part 1 and Part 2 of the Meet Your Future Self Meditation are free inside the Plasma Light Tribe. Join here to access them.

The Comedy of Control

So here’s the punchline: yes, I messed up. Yes, my dates and numbers betray me regularly. But behind all the ditzy moments is a bigger truth. We are all loosening from the hold of time because we are in the process of transcending the 3D dimensional time matrix.

Trying to keep everything in order now is like trying to play pin the tail on the donkey while the donkey is running around the yard. You might get the tail on, but more often than not it ends up on the fridge door or waving from the nearest tree. And that’s the teaching, stop needing to be as ordered as you once were. This is practice for letting go of control.

Ascension is not about getting better at organising the false matrix. It is about dissolving your need to grip it at all. Every misplaced key, every wrong birthday, every mistaken calendar entry is training your system to release control. And that release is not chaos, it is freedom.

Forgetfulness and the Spiritual Shift

This is also why we need to be kinder to ourselves, and to each other. The world is quick to pathologize memory slips as weakness, especially in our elders. But what if they are simply forerunners? What if their “forgetfulness” is proof they are already unplugging from linear time? Perhaps what the world calls decline is actually a different kind of brilliance, a softening into the eternal.

You are not less, because you cannot remember the date and find yourself a bit more ditzy than you’re comfortable being. You are remembering a deeper truth: that who you are cannot be measured by calendars or clocks. And where you belong is a realm of infinity, called the now, where all time exists simultaneously.

So if you too have put your keys in the freezer, or confidently told someone the wrong year, or lost track of a birthday … breathe. Laugh. It’s not a flaw. It’s not decay. It’s a shift. You are becoming less bound to the false matrix of time, and more aligned with the quantum reality of who you truly are.

Consider it training. Consider it cosmic comedy. And when it happens, let it remind you that you’re already living between worlds. That already makes you magical.

So carry on, my cosmic cupcake. May the sparkles of your frosting fall on the world like fairy dust.

From my heart to yours